Nut Bucket Films

location change!!

In Uncategorized on August 2, 2011 at 11:15 am



my obsession with Gerry

In Uncategorized on July 22, 2011 at 9:41 am


People always ask me what my favorite film is.  I never have a good answer.  There are a lot of great ones out there.  The other day I found myself watching Gerry for the sixth or seventh time.  It has got to be in my top five.  It’s a Gus Van Sant film, one of my favorite directors, made in 2002.  He, Matt Damon, and Casey Affleck wrote it.  Almost ten years old it still serves the same justice for me.

It’s about two guys, Gerry (Casey Affleck) and Gerry (Matt Damon), who go for a hike in the desert and end up getting lost without any food or water.  A serious test on their friendship and the will to survive.

The whole film has about two pages of dialogue.  You are basically watching these guys go through a series of events and asking yourself, “What the f#&k??  Are they stupid?  Why would they do that?”  You start to put yourself in their shoes.  Then you start to imagine what if it was you stuck out there?  How would you handle this situation?

I have a bit of an obsession with torcher.  I like needles.  I like pain.  I have a fantasy of getting dropped off in the middle of the jungle with four of my best friends, all armed with some sort of fire-weapon, and see who makes it out alive.  Either working together or turning against.  I am sure someone has made a film on that.  If not, they should.  I love going for a hike where I don’t know how long it is or what I have gotten myself into.

Testing my wit and courage to survive.  That’s what I want to do.  I don’t want to die of course, and I am very careful in my life to prevent that.  Maybe that is why I like watching this film so much.  I watch these guys, Gerry and Gerry, slowly fade away and lose their minds.  I think the lack of water gets them first.  Then ending up in the same place after circling the desert.  They must go through about four different landscape changes before ending up almost back to where they started.

It’s amusing in a way.  One part of the film has Gerry climbing onto a rock to see where they are and later figuring out that he can’t jump down because it’s too high.  So the other Gerry scrapes a pile of dirt together for him to jump onto.  The pile of dirt can’t be more than six inches deep.  That’s a hell of a solution!  It is when you are losing your damn mind.

I love Van Sant because he makes you watch.  He forces you to boredom and makes you think.  And for me that is one of my favorite things about him.  He gets it right quite often too.  There is a scene in the movie where the Gerry’s are just walking.  That’s it.  They are walking.  You can hear the crunching of the sand.  You see their faces.  You see the pain.  You see them not wanting to say a f#%king word to one another.  Or you see them not thinking about anything.  They are just walking because that is what you do when you are lost.  Van Sant takes you though a seven-minute take of that.  Not changing shots, just holding on them, following their every step.  It is my favorite part of the film.  You ask, “How long is he going to do this for?”  That is symbolic of the film in its entirety.  How long are they going to do this for?  You almost want to jump in and help.

The movie doesn’t end so well for one of the Gerry’s.  Gerry played by Matt Damon seems to keep his shit together a little bit longer than Gerry played by Casey Affleck.  Just like in real life, someone is going to lose his or her shit before the other person.  I know it wouldn’t be me.  I am the strongest.  I will survive.  I always have.


Lije Sarki aka Nut Bucket Films

So a guy walks into a bar

In Uncategorized on July 20, 2011 at 10:44 am



And asks me to be part of a collective called Friendly Films.

Well, it actually went down like this…a guy walks into a bar, my workplace, during my private screening of Closing Doors. This was the last attempt to raise some dough for our festival run. If you have been following the film you’ll know we are on our fifth festival in as many months. There is an archive in the blog last month that should help explain.

But this dude has long hair and a cap on and says he wants to talk to me about an idea. I was busy talking to the 100+ guests that showed up so I gave him my number and said call me tomorrow.

Guess what? He called and we talked. For about an hour. I was driving so it really didn’t matter. He had a lot to say about wanting to get some great people together and how he has been gripping in the industry for twenty years and yada yada yada. I have been the beneficiary of a lot of bullshit throughout my time in Los Angeles so I take this type on convo with a grain of salt. Until I see action.

Let me say how much he complimented my directing of the film and thought I had some talent to offer his “idea”. Thanks Kosta.

Well, Kosta calls me a month or two back and asks me if I would be interested in directing a music video of a new and up and coming artist, Duane Cali. I said, “sure…but let me ask you some questions.”. So I grinded for a while covering my bases. I have done some stuff in my career so far that has had some nightmare moments. Stuff that has made me say, “I will never f$&@ing do that again!”. I feel I have earned the right, ya dig? He had great answers.

He went on to assure me to trust him. So I have. I have had a few convos with the guys involved, artist and producer, and things seem to be on track. I saw a clip of the dancers today and was impressed. I guess a choreographer who works with Lil’ Wayne often is helping. I hot a buddy who I recently worked with who is going to run camera as well as Kosta’s DP.

I am fully on board and we are set for for a shoot next week. I get to direct and that’s it. I don’t have to produce and and wear 100 hats. I just get to prepare and show up and do what I think I know how to do. I am definitely getting better at it. Smile.

I feel grateful today. Let’s see how next week goes.

Nut Bucket Films,